Selfie look see

So I thought I would take some close up photos to review my progress a bit. Remember I'm only just starting week 4 so a long way to go. 

First up my shoulders and back. Hmm maybe a little muscle coming through? Still got those annoying tuckshop lady arms. They are getting better though. 

A front look. My husband commented the other day if I get to 60kg I'm going to look gaunt. Hmmmm. Yes my face is a lot thinner but hopefully i don't lose any more from there. I can see more definition after arm day which is tomorrow. And yes stunned mullet that's past her bed time and been up since 4am. 

Then comes the tummy. More fat gone but still I think I most definitely need to up my core work! My size 12 shorts are all getting too big now which is amazing as they didn't fit and I never ever thought they would when I started this journey. I've pulled them up for the photo they normally show about 5cm of undies. I'm more amazing they fit loosely around my legs than anything but Don't worry I only wear them around the house haha!  

And lastly my most hated part of my body. :( I have tried to accept them and I 

Am trying to beat them into submission by pushing them so hard with both cardio and heavy weights. They still refuse to give in though. I'm not giving up

The fight that easily though! 

These are the loose size 12 shorts. Sorry about the grainy pic no idea what's with that. 

These 2 photos are my pain right now. Yes my muscles are sore and tired but this pain is different. Sunday morning I got to the gym at 5am and of course I was the only one there. I thought hmmm haven't boxed in a while might do some of that. I grabbed my new boxing straps and off I went. It didn't hurt at the time but omfg they hurt now. Putting them in water is so painful and when i do 3 lots of dishes, kids bath time, constant wash down of dirty boys. They are pretty much agonsing all day. :( no pain no gain right lol and the boxing was a fun change. Probably won't be doing it for a while though haha. 

End week 3 weigh in

So weighed in at 71.5kg this morning: that's another 1kg down this week! So in 3 weeks I have lost 2.7kg. I don't expect to keep up this kind of weight loss as I'm down to the smaller end. I'm 11.5kg of my ultimate weightloss goal. I'm only aiming for 65kg in this challenge but I would love to reach 60kg. I haven't been that since I was a teenager. I did get down to 63kg in my early 20's but that's the closest I ever got.

I'm also lifting heavy weights now to build and time muscle and I'm well aware that muscle is heavier and denser than fat so whilst I might get smaller the scale may not reflect this. 

Some of my size 12's are now gettig a bit big which is nice :) 

I've also started to do a dry brush in the mornings to see if I can improve the appearance of my cellulite. Unfortunately because I was overweight as a child I developed it as soon as I went through pubity. I always asked my mum why she never helped me try to lose weight and her response was because in her eyes she never so me as over weight even when the school uniform dress shop had to order dresses in for me as I didn't fit the standard size. That right there is a life of mental scarring. If u read this and u have a daughter over weight please help her lose some weight. Not to bring her down but because u love her and u want her to be happy and healthy because believe me a life of hard work to teach an old dog new tricks is hard! It's not about being skinny it's about being healthy. 

I don't ever expect to rid myself of the cellulite I've had pretty much all my life but improving it a little would be nice. 

Week 3

So week 3 is drawing to a close. Official weigh in tomorrow. It's been a good week. Trained hard ate well. 

I have started trying to incorporate my longer distances for my next enticer tri coming up in 6 weeks. As this one is bigger 600m swim/18km ride /6km run I do have to train for it.

The run I'm good for. I do 6km in 35mins which isn't to bad. I won't do this speed on the day I know this as I do have the swim and ride before it but I just want to complete all distances without stopping or slowing down.

I need to get into the ride and swim though. I'm not too worried about the swim as I can get into the water and easily do 1.2km but it would still be nice to train a bit so I can really push myself. 

I ordered a proper tri suit which should arrive tomorrow and a race number belt and some shoe lace clips. All this should hopefully mean a quicker smoother transition. 

So the other thing which I guess is kinda amusing. I am lucky I am really thick skinned. I can imagine it would definitely get a lot of others down. No wonder so many over weight women give up the constant difficult fight that is losing weight. Not only do u have ur own negative voices u also have those hates that just have to put people down probably to make themselves feel better. 

So women's health and fitness mag shared my story on FAcebook tonight. Of course many people were encouraging but there are alway those who have to be negative and put u down. 

It has taken me a long time to accept my post baby body. Having kids changes ur body so much. It's been less than 12months since I had my last baby and post baby everything is so much softer and squishier. Let's not even mention that yes I'm carrying extra weight it's totally different now. 

I have accepted my lumps and bumps and I am working to improve that even more but people will always have to comment negative stuff. I exercise and eat well because I love myself not because I hate it. 

It's a shame but ultimately I am very proud of how far I have come and whilst my journey isn't complete, I am still working hard and I'm not going to beat myself down and focus on those things. 

The biggest thing is I have lost a lot of weight I am fit and healthy and I know eventually in time I will reach my goal weight. :) 

The festive season and weightloss

It's alway hard to stick to things over the festive season and I think it's more to do with is punishing ourselves than what we actually eat. 

So Christmas Day I just relaxed and enjoyed myself. Within reason of course. I ate 3 serves of trifle which was very naughty but it was so good lol. 

The following days were a bit worse we went away and stayed with family so I could only eat what I had access too. Unfortunately that included white bread. I felt horrible and bloated for a couple of days but where I could I did eat well. I did a workout Christmas Eve and Boxing Day but that was it. 

The thing was I didn't punish myself for relaxing and enjoying myself. I just let it be and I got straight back into it when I got home. When we punish ourselves we get into a negative loop and we wonder why bother when we maybe put on 200g which was likely just a poo required to empty out the extra food. This negative though makes us then stop and keep eating etc. Enjoying it at the time them letting it go so we can get back to it is what helps us succeed!!

 So this week I still managed an 800g loss. It wasn't the kilo I want to lose a week but all things considered it was an awesome effort. 

So I'm down to 72.5kg. Not long now until the 60's! I'm so excited I can't wait to finally get there. 

So after 2 weeks on the challenge I have lost 1.8kg and there is 7.5kg until my goal. If I can keep this up I might even manage to get under 65! 

My workouts have been good too. They are hard but that's the way I like it. I keep the intensity up for the whole 1hour20min. I can feel the hip fat going and also some more of the leg fat. 

I keep saying in my head it takes 4 weeks for u to notice, 8 weeks for ur loved ones and 12weeks for everyone else so keep going. 

So much happening

It's been a while but so much has been going on.

First up I've started back to work. It was a bit sudden and it's been an adjustment especially for the kids as they are now in daycare 3 days a week but it's a job I couldn't pass on. 

It makes things very hectic. I work 6:30-2:30. I have been going to the gym after work then picking the kids up at 4 go home cook dinner, dishes, tidy, bath, book, bed, prep for the next day then bed. 

My gym went 24/7 this week so I'm going to start going to the gym earlier. On work days I will go before work and on the other days I'm going to go after I give Zach a bottle at 4/4:30. I can never get back to sleep then anyway and I definitely train better in the mornings. 

I also officially started round 2 of the body blitz challenge a week ago. Weigh in days are Mondays. I started at 74.2kg week 1 weigh in -1kg weighing in at 73.2kg. I had dropped to 72.9kg but I had 2 peices of KFC chicken on day last week which was so silly, I didn't even enjoy it. The next day I had jumped back up to 73.8. I don't beat myself up over things like that. Doing this over the festive season will he hard but that's the point. I will enjoy myself but not blow out. 

Training wise I have stepping it up and I've changed around all my weights. My body had settled into a routine. I'm now going to do high intensity legs on Monday and high intensity arms on Tuesday. Heavy legs on wed heavy arms on Thursday and Friday will be core. 

I will incorporate cardio in there including lots interval type stuff. 

The definition in my shoulders is really standing out such a long way to go everywhere else.

I came across these photos the other day.  these are my post pregnancy photos. Not straight up but when I was ready to start losing weight. Most of the time I ended up falling pg when I reached 85kg but wow looking at it this way I have come such a long way. I can't believe I'm still considered overweight! Only 2.5kg until I reach my healthy weight range! 

I have also been looking into finishing off my fitness certificates in the new year. It's going to cost about $3K though :( we just don't have that money right now. I have a cert III so I can do fitness classes but I've never really been into classes. Not sure what I'm going to do but I really do want to help people like me go have always struggled to lose weight to finally smash their dreams and get fit and healthy because it really does change ur life. I just don't feel like i can do this until Ido finally get this last 8kg off and tone up. I do practice what I preach for sure I just want to get into a little bit better shape :) 

So hopefully I will update more regularly as I can. Being 1 week into this challenge already it will be over before I know it! 

Published

So my story has been published in this months edition of women's health and fitness magazine :) very surreal to think its actually me really. I know I was big and unhappy but I don't really remember being that big and that wasn't even my biggest. 

So I decide I really want to lose this last 10-15kg so I have dropped most of the dairy I was eating and also cut out all snacking. It's been a hard few days but already it's paying off. Weighed in at 74.1kg this morning. Official weekly weigh in day is Friday so would be nice to be 73kg :) haha! I'm back to eating what I ate on the challenge except I'm snacking less. It's hot and since stopping myself from having a few biscuits with my cup of coffee I don't actually really feel like anything. I would like to be under 70 before Christmas and I can actually easily see myself reaching that now :) 

I have my 2nd mini triathlon this weekend. I am a bi nervous about it. Although I've been doing a lot of running I haven't been doing too much riding or swimming. My right shoulder has been playing up an old injury from so much sport like cricket bowling and softball etc at school. It's bony spurs or something in the socket joint so it's painful to lift past horizontal. Because of this swimming is hard. I do though find swimming easy other than this pain and every time I get in the pool I can do 1.2km (2 x 600m) so I'm sure I will be fine on sudsy but I HB been lucky to swim once a week lately. Riding on the spin bike at the gym is a little boring too. I get 15mins done or around 7.5-8km and I stop. I have all of 1km to go but agh lol. 

I'm really enjoying the weights though. I'm pushing heavier again I do need to search for some more just to vary it up a bit my body will be getting used to it soon. 

Might be time to bring out some HIIT style stuff with some trisets using plyometic moves again. It been a while since I did that kind of training. Maybe next week after the tri is done :) 

This is the article 

Off the beaten track

So confession time :( I have been a bit naughty with my diet lately. Not blow bad but not loose weight good. I still go to the gym every day and I can see muscle forming, I haven't gained any weight still sitting at 75.1kg but I'm annoyed at myself because if I had been diciplined I could have lost the last 10kg already. Agh!

I am struggling a bit because I feel in a limbo land. I want to put my head down and train hard and eat well but I also want to try for bub 4 in jan and we are swaying for a girl which is high dairy. Dairy is yuk and my body hates it. Even today I decided I didn't want to have any and I can feel my tummy bloat is going down. 

I also applied for a job a few days ago. A science job close to home. I probably won't even get an interview being a mum of 3 littlies 3 and under but I'm more than well and truly qualified although my back ground is in human cell tissue culture and this job is plant tissue culture the cells I cultures were the hardest and fussiest. I was also assistant manager in a commercial lab supplying cells to customers. I know I will be a great member for their team and it's not research so it's secure, it's 15mins from home. I would happily work there for the next 15years lol. Just have to get an interview. 

If I do get the job I will probably put back baby 4 so I can settle in and things. I wouldn't want to go on mat leave straight away even though I would probably only have 6-12weeks off and go back part time even just 1-2 days a week increasing to 3 days at 6 months. B might have to do the stay at home dad thing this time. My sister will probably be on mat leave too as they are trying for no2 so she might take bub for 1-2 days a week so it doesn't have to go to day care. 

It's all just a wait and see what happens kind of thing and that's the frustrating bit. I'm not the most patient person. I've been on this girl diet jeopardising my weightloss with the extra dairy and I may just be putting it back anyway. If I don't get the job it's go ahead as planned and that means I need to stay on this diet. 

I like to have plans and know where I'm going. Limbo land is so hard for me.