Last week I went to the gym fine but I was finding that I was coming home from work and binging. And I mean binging. I mentioned it in my last post and no matter what I was trying I couldn't stop it.
Then came this week. I had 2 days sat and Sunday were I didn't want to eat anything at all. Not even remotely hungry.
Then on Sunday my eldest son came down with gastro and then bang the whole house.
I'm off work again today but we should all be fine to return to normal routine tomorrow.
In this process though I had to stop taking the vitex tablets I am taking to try and return my cycle to normal as we do want to try for baby 4 in the coming months. Having not taking it yesterday and today omg my energy and mojo has returned. I feel like I'm ready to take on the world again and smash it. Which is more amazing as I still have the reminence of gastro holding on. I need to take it today but I'm so hestitant now. I know I'm taking it for a reason and if I can't get my cycle functioning better it will likely end in a miscarriage but agh is the zap in everything worth it? For another 6 weeks maybe but it could be a lot more than that if it doesn't happen straight up.
I still have 5 weeks left of this challenge. I'm still only 69.5kg so the last few weeks I haven't lost any weight. That's ok though. I can still keep on going. Eat healthy exercise and the results will come. I would still like to be 65kg at the end which is only 4.5kg so still possible.
We also have some big changes coming. Firstly we did end up buying the fish and chip shop so I will finish up work on my current job next week and then into the shop we go. Take away fish and chips aren't really my thing but it's a good bases and I want to bring in healthy food options. How frustrating is it when ur family wants to eat take away but u can never get a yummy healthy option for urself and stuff going to 2 difference places. So I want to bring in fresh salads and I'm going to look at warm ones coming into winter. Different types of grilled fish and maybe chicken. Lots of ideas churning away.
Other than that of course is baby 4 when ever that comes about. In the next 3 years I want to build our own house. We would do it sooner but in order toget a mortgage when u have ur own business even if u have a great deposit u need to have 2 years of ownership and books to prove income and stability.
I am very excited about building though. I can't wait!
Then there is a vow Renewal. So B and I will have been together 10years next year. It will only be 7 married but why do people only ever count married years? It's not like u weren't together before that. We have been through a lot together in the past few years. We separated (not because we didn't love each other but because B was in a bad place and I didn't know how to help him anymore) our family will be complete and 4 kids in 10years is pretty good. After being with someone for that long u just develop a different kind of relationship. It would be nice to just refresh those vows to encompass who we are now and the relationship and family we have become.
I just want it to be us and the kids. Someone to help control the kids lol and a photographer. It's not official and no spending lots of money.
Exciting times ahead :)
